Well, what a session that was. I had been meaning to email my LLC about the next stages in terms of which days she runs development and management sessions. And lo and behold the DVD this week looked at what’s next so we were able to discuss this together as a group.
Development is on a Tuesday while Management is on a Wednesday so the very slim women we saw after our first week’s session were on management!
Here’s another thing I didn’t realise – management does not start (like Foundation) at the same time for everyone ie you might be the only one in your management group who is in Week 1. Our LLC assures us that this is fine (there are no DVDs) because everyone ahead of you can share their positive and negative experiences. I think I felt very sad because the people I really had hoped to do development with, can’t do Tuesdays. The other person wasn’t there so I am really hoping that at least she will be with me on the next stage of the journey.
I know it’s all about comfort zones; I am comfortable in my group, I like them and feel safe. But our group is already getting smaller. We lost one person after week 2, another person has had to change her day, one person has disappeared and one person has decided LL is not for her. So with another one absent for the session, we were a tiny group. I also saw how much smaller we all are physically; that is very noticeable.
Another issue that came up today was “goal” weights. Our LLC said that for those of us who don’t know what that is yet, don’t worry. Apparently, we will feel it. Four of us (out of six) have no idea. We’ve never been slim as adults – or at least not for any significant amount of time. The other two know their goal weights; one is discreet about it while the other one likes to tell us all.
I have a real problem with her and I have to admit a problem with slim people – BUT let me explain!
One of my friends was once chunkier than she is now but for the past two years she has been a tiny size 10. (Of course, size 10 is tiny but you know what I mean.) We spoke on the phone this week – she has no idea I have done LighterLife – so for all she knows, I could still be obese! She talked about being unfit and need to get back to the gym – nothing wrong with that – but when she said what a LONG road ahead it is, I just felt really angry. Of course, I said nothing. I wanted to say, look, it’s NOT a long road – you can do it. You’re already further than you think. I also, to be honest, wanted to say “try thinking about having to lose six stone”! I guess I thought the comments about having a long way to go were not very tactful. I no longer have six stones to lose and even when I started LighterLife, I reckoned I had about five to lose (two years ago I had about seven stones to lose) but that was how I felt.
It’s like I find it really hard to listen to slim people complaining about how much they weigh. I guess I have weight envy!!
And yet, as I read about management, it’s clear to me that I may become one of those people, particularly if I get down to a low weight. As someone on the DVD said, suddenly 2 lbs becomes more significant/a bigger issue that 2 stones were when she was bigger!
Is that what the art of successful weight management/maintenance is all about? Focusing on pounds rather than stones? Keeping your eye on the detail so that you don’t get out of control? Am I going to be someone who says “I’ve been really naughty/I’ve really overindulged and I’m going to have to cut back. I’ve put on a couple of pounds.”
I'm not sure I would be comfortable with that.
Yeah - those skinny bitches can really wind you up - LOL!!
I can't wait to be one though, can you? When I am I'm going to promise to think before I spout off about weight and try and remember what it was like being fat and feeling hopeless about it. I'm doing it now with my collegue even though I want to shake her and say get thee to LL!!
Lesley x
Posted by: Lesley | May 24, 2007 at 11:15 PM
We had a discussion this week about going into development - this was after another woman had left us for management and another was advised by the LLC to eat a couple of meals this week as really she could go into management now though she doesn't want to.
As of this week there are only 3 (poss 4 as one woman works shifts so that might be why she hasn't been) of us left out of 14. There are 2 (maybe 3) who'll go into development for a long while -- I'm hoping to be all done and dusted by Christmas ... that takes in the fact that I'm planning on eating for 5 weeks while on 2 holidays (evenings only).
Know exactly what you mean about the skinnies complaining about the pounds - bloody annoying isn't it :) Then again I'm hoping that when I'm slim if I do put a few pounds on to put a stop to it right away rather than just letting it go on and on so maybe they do have a point!
Cath
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Posted by: Cath | May 26, 2007 at 09:58 PM