Day 2 At The Business Park

So, Day 2 as a worker bee in the Business Park passed...slowly. And, sadly, I ate my way through today. I ate before I left for work - wasn't going to make that mistake again - but, by 12.30pm, my stomach was rumbling and I was desperate to eat.

I'm getting into the swing of things - the work is BEYOND tedious but I did manage to speak to Italy (in Italian) for two minutes so that cheered me up!

I spoke to my team mates and made a massive effort; I make tea, I'm friendly, I'm helpful. But the world of temps is a transient place so while I am all with the questions, most people aren't interested back. Never mind. At least I felt marginally less stupid today.

The lunchtime rush is...not working. By the time I leg it home for lunch, I have to take the dog out and by then, it's time to run back to work. So it's indigestion or...an alternative solution.

This morning I forgot the tea bags (doh!) and it's still a tea-free zone. Shocking!!! But, by the afternoon, I was sorted! I will get into the groove on the organisation front. I will!

Food-wise, it's bad. It's not horrendous - no mini-Aeros to sneakily eat today - but it's all about distracting myself with food. At 5pm, half an hour before I was due to leave, I ate a Mexican Bean Wrap from M&S because... well, it killed some time. Hello?!?!?!?!?! And then, on the way home, I went to M&S for all the other things I forgot and ate a bar of chocolate. I can honestly say I haven't done that for more than a year!!!

And tonight, because I am full of cold (blocked ears and nose), I am turning to the red wine. This really isn't good on so many levels, not least the Mastocytosis but I just can't face it and zoning out, right now, is easier.

I forgot to say that I went to the GP this morning (before work) - about a number of things - and our nearest centre for IVF (the type I may be able to have) got the thumbs down. She advised me that they (the clinic) are "very gloomy" about age, even when you are paying and she also advised me, in no uncertain terms, to go to London - but only after studying the stats and really doing my homework. OK then! I went to my appointment with a shopping list of things - I need an epi-pen and, it turns out, a training session! I need different pain killers - apparently, she can sort me out. PHEW! And so on, and so on. But she was super helpful and I was grateful for that.

Tomorrow is a BIG day; the Building Control inspection is happening (the culmination of all the work - will we pass or not?!) and I am meeting my mother at a London station (after her Indian escape!) after I've popped in to class to be weighed. The Expert Friend has very kindly offered to be here, ensuring tea and chat are on tap for the inspector (!), which makes things much, much easier.

I've found out that a friend of mine is playing a gig in London this weekend - right near to another friend's house; normally, I wouldn't go but I have decided that, in spite of having commitments here, a night in London (with the dog staying at my friends, too) could be just what the doctor ordered. Yes, I will drink. Yes, I will probably eat too much. But I want to have FUN! If I stay at home, the evening will go by, unremembered. If I make the effort to get us all to London, my friends will appreciate it! One thing's for sure, I can't continue with this eating 'strategy'!

Comments

[Peridot]

Oooh,station meet - isn't that one of your danger points? Good luck - forewarned is forearmed. And yay for fun! You deserve it after the weirdness of temping (do they only farm you out to freaks??!). If it's your friends in Limehouse be aware that I shall be scrutinising my 'hood for slender women with chocolate labradors d'un certain age and will approach if I see any! (I'm the dumpy redhead)

love
Peridot x

[LesleyLesley]

Hey sugar. Sorry I've not been around much and sorry you've been having a bad time. I really hope you experience an upturn soon and will be around a bit more for proper chats in the next day or so. Life is mad at the mo.

I'm thinking of you tho' luv.

((((((((big northern hugs...))))))))

Lesley x