The so-called lock down on food did not happen. If I were in London, right now, I can guarantee I would have spent the past 72 hours conducting an eat-a-thon of epic proportions. But I'm not in the capital and my access to temptation has been severely curtailed. Phew!
The chocolate thing continued. I went to a meeting yesterday and there were biscuits. This year I have turned away from such things - in abstinence, that's what you do. You just say no. Well, no thanks! Yesterday, I went along hoping against hope that the meeting would include biscuits. That I could eat. Hmmm or should that be Mmmmmm?! They were McVitie's Chocolate Digestives. Milk chocolate. Social anxiety stopped me scoffing the last one on the plate!!
Last night I had a whole packet of stuffed pasta. This is bad news. I know, I know, you're thinking, for goodness sake, don't be so obsessive. But it's the complete lack of control that scares me, to be honest. Of course, I also had salad because that's what the thinner me wants. Salad. All I want is chocolate and carbs.
Today it was crumpets. Don't ask. Although, I did do a quick calculation and saw that the crumpets seemed to be less damaging (in carbs that sugar) than a pack. How can that be? I soooo wish I knew more about nutrition. Anyway, it was crumpets and marmite (and butter).
There has been much prowling around, opening cupboards, opening the fridge a zillion times. For what? Rationally, I know what's available. Looking inside, again, is not going to make food appear out of nowhere.
Anyway, all day I've been feeling tired. Really, really tired. When I finally sat down this evening, I fell asleep instantly for 30 minutes. I felt much better. Maybe that's what's been driving the past few days - extreme tiredness. Anyway, today has been chocolate free.
And that reminds me...Shauna, if you're reading this, I TOTALLY agree - what IS it with Green&Black's and 30% versus 34%? It hardly seems worth launching a whole new product for 4% but obviously some focus groups made them think it was worth it. Taste-wise, I preferred the creamy milk ie lower cocoa content. My partner in chocolate preferred the 34%. Does that make me the opposite of a food snob and reveal a poor palate? Probably. But then I am the girl who will never turn down a Tunnock's Caramel!!!!
Have you tried putting a picture of yourself in a swimming cossie on the fridge door??! That is what we have had to do....and it's quite effective! God knows what the dog walkers make of it!
Keep it up chuck and less choccie talk!
Lesley x
Posted by: Lesley | April 30, 2009 at 11:34 PM
I think it sounds like tiredness and boredom driving you to look for the answer in the fridge/cupboards. It's a powerful combination.
That Lesley's made of tough stuff. I'd rather eat the photo than stick it on the fridge. And the fridge come to that. Ugh, it doesn't bear thinking about.
love
Peridot x
Posted by: Peridot | May 01, 2009 at 10:37 AM
Hello, hello, hello....
I am laughing... Do not keep saying you know nothing about nutrition, YOU SO DO!!
I haven't loged on for ages, and rivited by the chocolate talk... You are totally exhausted, and are searching for the answer in food. You know so much, believe this, you are an EXTREMELY SUCCESSFUL DIETER !!!!
Remember, remember this, you are the Queen of Blogs, helping others and I very much hope, yourself - the most important person on this planet..... xxxx
Posted by: Doodle | May 04, 2009 at 07:29 PM